Tuesday, March 30, 2010

It's a GOLD

Amber had another competition on Saturday the March 27th 2010, she did Awesome as always she lights up that stage as she walks out, the smile on her face never leaves her face until she leaves the stage, she has found something she truly enjoys and is so good at I'm not just saying that either cause I'm her mother. She is eager to do some solo stuff and her dance teacher Ms. Sherri will choreograph a tap number for her yippee that will be awesome to see. I'm so proud of her and all her the hard work, She never walks anywhere she is always Dancing. Good for her. Love you Amber Lee Mom is so proud of you and Dad and Lauren too. It's funny how she enters the stage each time and my eyes begin to tear up, maybe nerves or maybe just so proud of my little girl for growing into such a graceful and beautiful dancer. She maybe only seven but she has what it takes she knows the rhythm and the beat and can create a dance just by listening to the music. As we were in the car the other day we were singing and I said Amber you may not be the singer but you are my dancer maybe Lauren will be the singer" but I would be happy with another dancer too.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Competitions begins

Well this past weekend on March 21, 2010 Amber competed in her first dance competition I was so nervous I think more than she was, the atmosphere was electric and crazy all at the same time. We were the first from the center to arrive so talk about being blind going into it. I did Amber's make-up yeah a really exciting time for her, she loves to wear it and well I know if I can;t find mind I know just where to look you got it Amber's room.
Well after finally everyone else arriving I got Amber all situated and Lauren and I returned to our seats with Matt and my parents. There were so many acts at least 30 that I saw before
Amber went on.
The anouncement came and the music began but then stopped my heart sank to the floor, recalling the one recital where Amber never did perform because she was so nervous, so that was my first thought. Well then after a long 5 minutes the music began and out they came. Amber smiling the whole time and looked to have given it her all. I was so proud of her and even Lauren wathed her. I try and remind her that she is there to have fun no matter if you win or lose (Matt thinks differently)
Well it was not long before the announcements came for awards and they received a High Silver in their group. YEAH for them it was great. Amber then found us in the stands and the smile on her face while grasping the Ribbon so tightly in her hands said it all. She could had got just an honorable mention and I don't think it would had mattered. I asked her did you have FUN and she said yes and that was all that mattered.

She has been dancing since she was three and every year since and not a day goes by that I dont see her doing tap, lyric, jazz, hip-hop or ballet moves through the house. It's something that she truley enjoys and we will continue to support that as long as she wants to dance. I'm very proud of you Amber and as we always tell her "Dance like noone is Watching"

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Its Been.. . . .

Well it has been two weeks since I would had returned to my job at CMP. I have visited the ladies there but as Matt likes to call them my (cronies) It's crazy how I get a pit in my stomach as I approach the drive way that I drove to for the last two years and called my employer, but when I enter the building it goes away maybe because before I can get Lauren and I through the door I welcomed with open arms by my FRIENDS. (that is a wonderful feeling)
As I get up each day to wake my sleeping seven year old and rub her back to wake her sometimes while cradling Lauren in the other arm I feel right at home. I love to spend the time in the morning with my two girls and listen to Amber talk with Lauren as I cook up a fried egg or on those late morning a nice bowl of cereal. Then out the door she goes for another day of learning. Lauren and I have the day to our selves Even though lately it has not felt like ourselves:
After my accident I have still been suffering from pain in my shoulder so my Dr. has referred me to a physical therapist well are you ready for this story I called a place in Waterboro thinking closer to home well after answering questions that the receptionist whom seemed to not have very good personal skills asked me and confirmed my first appointment I asked if it was OK for me to bring my 2 month old infant with me. . . She paused for a moment and then asked (are you ready for this) Is she CONTROL ABLE I reacted with "she is a 2 month old so I would hope so". I got off the phone with a very uneasy feeling and then I called and cancelled and I will be going to Gorham a little further to travel but at least she is welcomed there. So needless to say that begins this week and I will be doing that twice a week for the next 4 to 6 weeks, so much for time for ourselves Lauren at least those two day a week.
Well to top that off we are awaiting the arrival of a new washer and dryer a long wait it has been or feels like, we have been going to my mom and dads and that has been a good chance for my mom to visit with Lauren. See it has not stopped since I have been home.
But since I have been home I love it. . . . . Don;t get me wrong I think about CMP and heck even have been dreaming of it yeah CRAZY but I would not change anything right now. Well some things but not having the chance to be home with my two girls I would not change that.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

It's A New Beginning

Well today March 4th was supose to be my first day back at work, but it's not it's the start of a brand new adventure for me and the family. I think that this was part of the plan to what has been thrown at me in the past few months. So I begin the journey of a Stay at home mom. This will be quite the change for me for I have have worked since I was in high school, even after having Amber in 2002 I returned to work after 9 weeks. What a change this is going to be but a GREAT one. To be here for Lauren all day and to be here for Amber to get her off to school and off the bus, (nothing like having your daughter get off the bus with open arms to you) Then Summer will be here and all the adventures are endless. This is going to be a great journey. . . .

Can it get any worse!

This year of 2010 came in with what I could not had asked for to be any better and that was the arrival of Lauren. Then at the end of January the news of me getting lay ed off from CMP, I thought ok OK it's all bright sky's from here right, I had my ducks in a row ready to face the thought of being unemployed. Then once again on February 25th an accident oh yes I was rear ended in South Berwick. I was frantic as I jumped from the car not sure if it was still moving at that point I could not get to Lauren quick enough in the back seat, I heard her cry and thought oh thank god. She was startled from a deep sleep I'm sure. I tried to calm down and called for help they checked her out at the scene and she appeared to be just fine THANK YOU LORD. . . I knew that I would be sore in the following days and sure enough I was. The car is in the shop with estimated damages of 7500.00 so far. Ok March is right around the corner and that is sure to be a better month I'm sure of it.