Thursday, April 30, 2015

My outlet

I have really come to love this blogging thing, I spend a lot more of my blogging episodes on my other blog as I reflect on a man I miss so much my daddy. I'm able to just let my raw emotions spill out onto the computer I cry I sob and sometimes laugh out loud.
But this blog is much different well I want to separate it as such. I'm amazed with people in this world, people who portray lives better than yours, complain and or have no problems at all. Sorry life ain't F$#&*@? Perfect. This past week I have really reflected on myself and the people in my life, really looked hard at the ones who maybe are just along to be nosey, ones who want to compare and ones who truly get me and love me. It's funny when you start to look around people and their true colors show. They say they care but ya know they don't give a rats ass, well I think it's time I pull up my big girl panties and only worry about what I think of myself. The world is scary enough and life is too short to waste on those whom only bring you down, so I look at the bigger picture and keep those who love me for who I am.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Blogging the new stress relief.

I have always loved writing as a child and I recently came across diaries that I had as a child. I get that from my mom she writes in one every night. There is something about just letting it all out. I have this blog and another that talks about the man I lost a year ago my dad. It's my escape from the pain of grief, the happiness of memories and the tears of fear. It's funny how your mind leads your fingers across a keyboard and before you know it you have filled a page and your shoulders feel lighter. It's my escape from stress, drama, and just every day life.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Crazy how time flies

Wow I was just looking back upon this blog of mine that I started and stopped so many times. WOW how life has changed for me, I have lost important people in my life. I suffer through grief and some days just trying to get the get up and go. I'm working on it, yes maybe a year has passed but there is no time frame you can put on grief and I'm learning that.
I need to do this more I need to Let It All Out. Yeah that's what this blog had come to be cause I needed to let it all out. There is something about putting your feelings out there something about just spilling it all, no one to judge you well just your blog readers.
A new year is upon us 2015 Holy Crap where did 2014 go. . . Man 2014 was a year of HEARTACHE huge loss of my dad which made my heart break, I completed my first ever half marathon, not in any record time but wait it was my race so my pace, I watched my daughter perform and earn scholarships, I watched my little Lauren grow up right before my very eyes with her learning and and her personality. A trip to Hawaii oh the Island where I left a piece of my heart I cant wait to go back and pick it up. Travled to Las Vegas and took a road trip to Los Angeles. My daughter got o experience Hollywood. We had firsts together as a family, my nieces 1st birthday, My 35th birthday party, and lots of firsts with out my dad. We grew together as a family and I guess you can say we grew apart too.
Well its a new year, so that means new adventures and new 1st and new experiences, So here's to a new year. . . And hopefully I can remember to let it all out more than just once a year.